Alex is 5
In early 2012, I found out I was expecting my fourth child in 5 and a half years. Crazy by today's standards and so not what I pictured happening in my life.
There were so many mixed feelings when I found out number 4 was happening. I was just getting used to having 3 and now I would have to learn to maneuver the land of 4.
I would venture to guess that I still really haven't learned how to effectively maneuver the land of 4, but I try each and every single day. Every day is a lesson learned, every day is an adventure and every day is a blessing no matter how difficult.
My number 4 is 5. My F5 is 5. Tornado Alley. Big Al. Alley-Bob. Alex Michael. Five. F I V E. I'm not sure how this is happening. It makes me sad yet so happy and proud at the same time.
Alex is the sweetest, cuddliest most loving boy. He loves hugs and snuggles. He is sensitive and kind. He's a handful. He's rough and violent in his ways. He's loud. He truly is both sides of the spectrum, with no in-between. He's either "on" or "on". He only knows one speed...fast. He's helpful. He's bad. He's my most challenging, while being the easiest. Yeah, it doesn't make sense, but it's just Alex. Picture a blender blending without a lid meets the Tasmanian Devil meets a big cuddly teddy bear. That's Al.
So, you've taught me so much. The first thing you taught me is that a stomach virus at 9 months pregnant on December 23rd will probably result in a baby on December 24. You have taught me to let so much go...to pick my battles. You've taught me that hugs and kisses solve so much. You've taught me about Paw Patrol and Blaze and trucks.
You're in school all day, every day. It's been quite the change for you and I. Our days used to revolve around eachother. We'd do everything together! It's been a HUGE adjustment for you and boy it was difficult. You still struggle with it--almost daily. Part of me wants to keep you home forever but part of me (the more realistic side) sees the progress you've made in school so far and sees how you're growing and realizes that this was the best thing for you.
You love Jack. You want to be just like him. You also annoy the hell out of him, probably on purpose just because you know it gets a rise out of him. You are very close, though and I hope you always stay that way. You and Sara are my younger "JackandEmma." You are "SassandAl." You are my littles and have a very close bond . I love to watch you interact. She's very protective of you. You love them both.do much, yet the sibling you're closest to is Miss Em. I call it "The December Connection." You have so much in common, from the way you play to your sometimes explosive personalities. You laugh so hard together. It just makes me smile thinking about it.
You are your Daddy's son, through and through. You love to watch him work and always want to help. You love the machines he drives at work and can't wait until you're old enough to join him. You have so much love for him.
You are super attached to me. It's such a double edged sword. I love it and hate it at the same time. It's to be expected, you were home with me the longest and had me all to yourself for 2 years. I always say that it worked out like that because you needed me more. You commanded my undivided attention. I'm so grateful for that time thar we spent together and will always cherish it.
Alex, my beautiful boy. I love you and believe in you so much. You will do great things. You are an amazing human and I'm so proud to call you son. Happy 5th birthday, my love. O love you to the ends of the earth.
And I thank you for choosing me
to come through into life to be
A beautiful reflection of his grace
And I know that a gift so great
Is only one God could create
And I'm reminded every time I see your face.
There were so many mixed feelings when I found out number 4 was happening. I was just getting used to having 3 and now I would have to learn to maneuver the land of 4.
I would venture to guess that I still really haven't learned how to effectively maneuver the land of 4, but I try each and every single day. Every day is a lesson learned, every day is an adventure and every day is a blessing no matter how difficult.
My number 4 is 5. My F5 is 5. Tornado Alley. Big Al. Alley-Bob. Alex Michael. Five. F I V E. I'm not sure how this is happening. It makes me sad yet so happy and proud at the same time.
Alex is the sweetest, cuddliest most loving boy. He loves hugs and snuggles. He is sensitive and kind. He's a handful. He's rough and violent in his ways. He's loud. He truly is both sides of the spectrum, with no in-between. He's either "on" or "on". He only knows one speed...fast. He's helpful. He's bad. He's my most challenging, while being the easiest. Yeah, it doesn't make sense, but it's just Alex. Picture a blender blending without a lid meets the Tasmanian Devil meets a big cuddly teddy bear. That's Al.
So, you've taught me so much. The first thing you taught me is that a stomach virus at 9 months pregnant on December 23rd will probably result in a baby on December 24. You have taught me to let so much go...to pick my battles. You've taught me that hugs and kisses solve so much. You've taught me about Paw Patrol and Blaze and trucks.
You're in school all day, every day. It's been quite the change for you and I. Our days used to revolve around eachother. We'd do everything together! It's been a HUGE adjustment for you and boy it was difficult. You still struggle with it--almost daily. Part of me wants to keep you home forever but part of me (the more realistic side) sees the progress you've made in school so far and sees how you're growing and realizes that this was the best thing for you.
You love Jack. You want to be just like him. You also annoy the hell out of him, probably on purpose just because you know it gets a rise out of him. You are very close, though and I hope you always stay that way. You and Sara are my younger "JackandEmma." You are "SassandAl." You are my littles and have a very close bond . I love to watch you interact. She's very protective of you. You love them both.do much, yet the sibling you're closest to is Miss Em. I call it "The December Connection." You have so much in common, from the way you play to your sometimes explosive personalities. You laugh so hard together. It just makes me smile thinking about it.
You are your Daddy's son, through and through. You love to watch him work and always want to help. You love the machines he drives at work and can't wait until you're old enough to join him. You have so much love for him.
You are super attached to me. It's such a double edged sword. I love it and hate it at the same time. It's to be expected, you were home with me the longest and had me all to yourself for 2 years. I always say that it worked out like that because you needed me more. You commanded my undivided attention. I'm so grateful for that time thar we spent together and will always cherish it.
Alex, my beautiful boy. I love you and believe in you so much. You will do great things. You are an amazing human and I'm so proud to call you son. Happy 5th birthday, my love. O love you to the ends of the earth.
And I thank you for choosing me
to come through into life to be
A beautiful reflection of his grace
And I know that a gift so great
Is only one God could create
And I'm reminded every time I see your face.
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