Happy (almost) Birthday, my Jack.
As I sit here writing this, it's 7/6/13. 6 years ago at this moment, I was going to bed for the last time with my baby boy in my belly. At 4:47 am on 7/7/07, I went into labor and I stayed in labor until 3am on 7/8/07. It was at the moment that I became a Mommy. A Mommy to you, Jack William Budesheim.
Words can't express what it's like to see your baby for the first time. And whereas, I've had 4 of those indescribable moments, that very first moment, the moment I first saw you Jack, my world was forever changed. Oh boy was it changed.
It's now 7/7/13. 6 years ago at this time, I had just asked for an epidural. I wasn't trying to be a hero, let me tell you. I remember vividly though, that when I wasn't having contractions, I felt fine. But, when the nurse, "the anesthesiologist will be in surgery for the next hour", I knew it was as good a time as any.
I remember so much about that day, that it just doesn't seem possible that it's been 6 years. 6 years sounds like such a long span of time, but it really isn't. Not when you are constantly surrounded each and every day by a little person (or in my case, little people) who is ever growing and ever changing. No two days in that 6 year span have been the same.
To Zion is of course playing as I write this, and it just resonates with me. "My joy, my joy, the joy of my life." You are that joy, my boy. You are a special young man, my Jack. You've changed me, you've made me grow, you've helped me, you've taught me. People claim that I'm a really good Mom...that's because I have really good kids. You are my first born, my angel, my joy. Joy. That's a good word to use when talking about you. Joy. You bring me SUCH joy.
Thank you Jack. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being the most amazing, feisty, beautiful, sensitive, loving, caring, bright and joyful person I've ever met. I love you today. I love you every day.
And I thank you for choosing me,to come through unto life to be a beautiful reflection of his grace. See I know that a gift so great Is only one God could create, and I'm reminded every time I see your face....
Words can't express what it's like to see your baby for the first time. And whereas, I've had 4 of those indescribable moments, that very first moment, the moment I first saw you Jack, my world was forever changed. Oh boy was it changed.
It's now 7/7/13. 6 years ago at this time, I had just asked for an epidural. I wasn't trying to be a hero, let me tell you. I remember vividly though, that when I wasn't having contractions, I felt fine. But, when the nurse, "the anesthesiologist will be in surgery for the next hour", I knew it was as good a time as any.
I remember so much about that day, that it just doesn't seem possible that it's been 6 years. 6 years sounds like such a long span of time, but it really isn't. Not when you are constantly surrounded each and every day by a little person (or in my case, little people) who is ever growing and ever changing. No two days in that 6 year span have been the same.
To Zion is of course playing as I write this, and it just resonates with me. "My joy, my joy, the joy of my life." You are that joy, my boy. You are a special young man, my Jack. You've changed me, you've made me grow, you've helped me, you've taught me. People claim that I'm a really good Mom...that's because I have really good kids. You are my first born, my angel, my joy. Joy. That's a good word to use when talking about you. Joy. You bring me SUCH joy.
Thank you Jack. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being the most amazing, feisty, beautiful, sensitive, loving, caring, bright and joyful person I've ever met. I love you today. I love you every day.
And I thank you for choosing me,to come through unto life to be a beautiful reflection of his grace. See I know that a gift so great Is only one God could create, and I'm reminded every time I see your face....
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